What's To Go On

     “It is not much to go on, I know.” – Ada Limón


Once it was a woman who stayed with me, not knowing

I’d been thinking hard about a razor blade 

in the bathroom cabinet. For nearly all that year

it was just that Lake Erie, the smallest of the Greats

hadn’t left overnight, still lapped at my shred of beach.

     For two years, I tried to be it for my sister.

That still stands for something though little

is left of it, her ashes I keep meaning to scatter

on Sippo Lake after twenty years on my shelf.

Unlike some of my friends, birds just don’t

do it for me, but this year, my first in fifty

with no family reunion on the Fourth of July,

it was Karen’s invitation to her large backyard.

     I try to be it, call Kim to say she’ll be okay

if she can’t have children, though I have no proof.

I drive the asylum seeker five hours to her next

safe space. I can’t pray, so I try to be

a prayer in motion. Not much, I know.

I do go on. 



Diane Kendig‘s latest books are Woman with a Fan: and Prison Terms, and she co-edited the tribute anthology, In the Company of Russell Atkins. Kendig led a prison writing workshop for 18 years and now curates Cuyahoga County Public Library’s  weblog “Read + Write” and writes on the streets for “Free Poetry Cleveland.”